Friday, April 16, 2010

Stand Up and Fight Jesus Inspiring New Leaders for the Church

This is the day after my first live TV interview. I misunderstood I thought I would be interview for and whole hour not only about ten minutes. I did find out that God had put on my heart about abuse. It has seemed that everyone that I meet new as been or knows of someone that has been abuse dramatic in their life. I feel it is time for me to speak out and inform you of mine.
I was raised catholic and did I have abuse happen to me. Yes and most of the Catholics that I have conversations with tell me of the abuse by the nuns or the priests. I have written my unedited copy of Stand up and Fight. This was written after I realize I and others had been abuse by our nun. At nine years old I was thrown down the steps for just talking in line. Why others were shaken until their nose bled. Why singing with the class at my desk the nun telling me not to sing for my voice wasn’t good enough. I needed to go and listen to a radio. The stories from broken fingers with rulers to train to write right handed. To a nun hitting a child so hard with a ruler it stuck in their head and a scar is there today.
When I figure out I was abused I was so mad and angry. I didn’t want to talk to anyone and for that to happen to me that was pretty bad. That night as I laid in anger on my bed my daughter Nicole came to talk to me. She said: “I needed to forgive them as Jesus did. I said, “I couldn’t pray, I was too angry so she did it for me.” That night when I awoke in the middle of the night I wrote this. It is for anyone that suffered abuse by an adult or another older child that took the innocence of a child away. Before you read it after I was done writing I looked at pictures of my children when they were younger. The pictures brought me joy and my anger cease. I feel the devil will use whatever he can to keep us unhappy. It will be your choice to choose to come out of the darkness and Stand Up and Fight along my side for changes in this country and the world. Also, after going to classes to spot abuse of children it was stated that anyone that states they represent God and abuses a child it is devastating. For that child feels God doesn’t love him or God is mean. If I could I would give everyone a hug. Since I am unable to do that please go find a neighbor, friend, or family member that needs help coming out of their darkness.

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